update

buzzlightyear · update

(mods sorry i swear i posted this as a reply to my thread buzz's BR)
Hey guys
I havent updated for a while, the reason is i have been busy trying to move out my parents house because of their negative influence on my game (they are negative minded people who always look to the worst) I am such a positive glass half full guy that me and my parents were like chalk and cheese, so i knew i had to get out of there.
My poker results said so too

IF YOU LOOK AT A that was may kind of time, i was having some good results but then peaking and going straight back down.
Everytime i went down was generally because my mindset was wrong because of having arguments with my parents over BS things.

So i tried to start training them to become positive minded hoping that they may change.

They changed a little but not much, i realised its just something i will have to put up with until i can move out.

SO THIS LEADS ME TO B.
This was my first real success, i was so happy i thought i had finally cracked the HU game.
However it was here i learned a brutal lesson, which was dont be too quick to move up, i moved up to the 50s at 20 bb's. This was too shallow as i got angry and emotional when i lost. This was a horrible moment in my life because everything i knew came crashing down, I'd hit a wall and didnt know how to get over it.
So i moved down to the 20's and started again studying videos and slowly i hit the bottom of the dip and started to win again. Happy days again Smile

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THIS LEADS ME TO C.
Due to having to go back to the drawing board I relearned a few things and this put me in shape to go on a nice streak, and again i thought i had made it, i thought finally i cracked the son of a biatch.

So i moved up to the 50's and then my world came crashing down i lost and then i lost some more. So i moved down to the 30's and carried on losing. I watched videos and carried on losing. My MINDSET was in pieces, i was scared to play because i didnt want to lose anymore, i was depressed angry etc. I was thinking perhaps i should quit, perhaps im not good enough, basically all the wrong thoughts. Admittedly i did get some sick luck in this downswing but it was compounded by bad play, tilt, and negative mindset that began to creep in until it took over.

THIS LEADS ME TO D.
I redeposited on FT. Before i did i went over everything that went wrong and why.
So i sat down and thought about my strategy. The conclusion i came to is i was trying to move up to quickly. I was going by a 20 bb rule, that brokerstar says to use as a guideline, but i was sticking to it strictly believing it would work for me too. So i decided to have a 30bb rule. This i knew would be slightly frustrating because i would have to play more 20's and 30's in order to get to 30bb's @ 50's ($1500). But i decided it would be worth it because i didnt want to feel angry etc when i lost one match at the 50's.

So i have done that, i kept to the 30 bb rule. Its been the best thing i could of done because i feel so comfortable playing now that losing a game doesnt really register any more and i dont have all these negative feelings which lead to tilt.

So far so good its going in the right direction.

I have had to learn the REALLY HARD WAY, but because of it i think i am a much better PERSON and perhaps slight better poker player for it. As its not my poker skills that have changed that much but ME.
Everytime i have failed really bad, i have had to search within myself or go find information to propel me forward, to overcome the hurdle, the wall in front of me. Everytime i had a huge downswing it felt like a horrible time in my life, everything i had been working for just come crashing down. BUT I AM THANKFUL FOR THEM, I AM SUPER GRATEFUL THAT I FAILED GRANDLY AND GOT COMPLETELY WIPED OUT. As not just my poker game has improved because of this but my whole life, having to deal with such (temporary) failure has made me a stronger person.

So i moved out my house late November ....into a caravan...yes i know its freezing in the uk this time of year but i had to have my freedom from my parents, and that is where D started.

This is from the start of december when i really started playing consistant hours, often 8-12 hour sessions a night. I am proud as its the most i have ever earnt in such a short period of time we are barely half way through the month.

I finally moved up to the 50's on a 30bb min level, but i had to work my ass off at the 30's to get there and keep consistant and patient in order to reach my goal.

I am going to sign off here because i think this is long enough, as a closing note i hope this gives some insight to my journey as a poker trainee, that others can use to help them on their journey.

Things i have learnt
BANKROLL MANAGEMENT IS KEY - find your comfortable level, you should be able to lose a buy in and not care

INNER GAME IS KEY - your poker skills are worthless if your mindset is wrong, make your you feel like a king in your life and the riches will follow

PRACTICE - practice doing things to stretch your comfort zone eg playing 12 hour sessions instead of 3 hours.

SUCCESS - success isnt permanent. However every failure brings you closer to MORE SUCCESS.

Thanks for reading guys

Peace out
Happy xmas

Wannawin

Nice work! glad it is working well for you.

z1s6arn

I F*UCKING LOVE YOU!

forced

well done!

tmle09

ride that winning streak forever! Smile

TheHUSNGDude

Nice one dude Laughing

...post us some pics of the lucky grinding caravan Laughing

hjbear

yea well done, i ahve the same problems with the parenst aswell. i may just get a caravan too if this is what results it can preoduce Smile

hjbear

it also looks like i cant spell but i promiss i can

you see what i did there? haha

z1s6arn

You've got a bright future bear!

buzzlightyear

thanks guys
pics will be coming Smile

i guess the morale of the story is have the right environment to work in with the right mindset and inner self belief

hjbear